TAKING BACK [THE KNIT]

AAARRRGGGHHHH!!!! I had this 3/4 of the way typed up and AOL froze ...

My other entry kind of went like this (this is the condensed version): I'm lazy and there's a ton of shit I need to do. I need to take pictures of Lelah #2 with the halter top, which I can't do until I make I-cord for the eyelets. This top has been done for about a month. I need to take WIP pics of my afghan, so you ladies may admire it. It looks beautiful and I can hardly believe that this is coming from me. I've got two panels done so far, and I'm laboring away at the third. Aran knitting is super tedious. I need to finish Clappy, which I have been working on for 3 months, on and off. I need to do all of this by the end of the week. If I don't feel free to leave me hate comments. I just need to stop being lazy about stuff. I also need to type up a pattern and a chart for people. (Someone wants to do my "TONI" illusion scarf, isn't that wonderful?)

Reno this weekend was wonderful. I was really tired, it was super hot, and dancing in high altitude sucks, especially when I'm as out of shape as I am. It's really nice to dance out and have everyone there just to have fun. Competitions are great, but the atmosphere is totally different. It's also nice to see Scottish Country Dancers and Irish Step Dancers, as we're usually segregated from each other. I had a huge description of the whole weekend, but really it all boils down to that.

Three of my friends have asked me to knit them stuff lately! It rules. Although it's hard to knit for other people that I'm not super close to because I don't really know what they'll like. (I'm listening to Misfits - Where Eagles Dare right now, and all I can think about is how good the Atom and His Package version is!) Anyway, yeah. I like to knit for other people, so this is definitely good. (OHMIGAWD, the radio show I'm listening to just had a Futurama bit in the bumper. Actually two. And they're from one of my favorite episodes- The Devil's Hands Are Idle Playthings. Who can resist loving HedonismBot?)

I was watching MTv's "MADE" today -- that's never a good intro -- and they transformed a hardcore girl into prom queen. Oh man. The whole show she's got straight edge band shirts on, and she looks super scene. I think she's from California, too.  Anyway, basically the took her and removed her personality. No longer was she the girl that no one likes at school who is in-your-face and gets in fights, blah blah blah. They dyed her hair and put her in new clothes. Now, I know that this is all stuff she wanted, but oh man. And it just reinforces the fallacy that everyone who is different wants to fit in, even if they don't want to admit it. I definitely didn't want to fit in during high school. Watching that show made me so glad that I decided not to go to my senior prom. I really would have been miserable. I hated everyone at school save maybe 10 people. And shows like that make it seem like kids like me really would be happy and everyone would love us if we dressed and acted "normal". Fuck that, I wouldn't love myself. All that goddamned show does is take someone with a personality who is unique and gets rid of that in the process of making them prom queen or captain of the football team or a rapper or whatever. I think the one point I believe in my life is that you can be WHATEVER you want to be WITH your cool-ass personality. You CAN be hardcore AND prom queen. You don't need to dye your hair and change your clothes and act differently to do it. It's all about attitude. Anyway, I need to not rant about this anymore because I'm getting pissed off. I'm just a big believer in letting people be who they are. I may hate them and wish they would change, but it's their prerogative to change. Then again if they didn't want to change the show wouldn't make them do it. I don't know. I just think it sucks that kids think you have to fit a certain stereotype to achieve your goals. Also, it seriously pissed me off that they continually referred to her as punk. NOT the same think. AT ALL.

Random thought: I love hearing different variations of the same song. I've heard 2/3 different versions of Tiger Army's Nocturnal, and it's really interesting to hear how little things will make songs sound totally weird and new.